Well, you sit and you deal with it, or else it keeps coming back, over and over and over and it gets a little bit worse everytime it does.  Except sometimes there are some things that you really cant deal with because you dont know how.  It just such a mass of incredible mess that there doesnt seem to be any kind of verifiable beginning or end, it all just meshes together.

It was a point I have been at for quite some time, one that I really didnt know how to deal with, and if I wanted to deal with it at all.  But then I learned that everything in life is something worth dealing with for the simple fact that it happens. Things that are ignored dont just go away, and you cant pretend something didnt happen when it did, because its all helped to form you into the person you are today.

It was at this point that I realized that there are just some things that I dont know how to deal with, because its simply something that is out of my control, and possible something that is just simply not meant for me to deal with.  In instances like these, I feel it best to give my concerns to God and let him lead me in the best direction.  He knows better than I possibly ever could what the best course of action is and how things should work out.  All of this is just part of the plan that He has set out for me, and while I may not understand the longterm reasons for this, I do know that it helps to restore and re-establish my faith in Him and His ways.

Its just another part of my cross, one that we all have to bear.